Leave A Whisper
Chapter One - Entities Are Made
...to see is
an option; to hear is benevolent...
There
was so much blood. But why wouldn't there be? Even though it had rained earlier, the ground was hardened by the
cold. But he didn't care.
Leaning his back against
an old oak tree in a squatting postion with knees up, he looked over at her lying on the ground just a few feet away.
Moonlight glimmered off her bare breasts covered with the blood and residual sweat he'd left behind like a dog that
had marked his territory. She belonged to him and he could do whatever he wanted. And he wanted to do more.
He fumbled with a crumpled pack of smokes and lit a crimped cigarette. Trying to breathe
in a deep draw, he realized when nothing got inhaled, that it was snapped almost in half. He carefully pieced the smoke back
together as if it would magically mend itself, pinching and holding it closed with his fingers. He sucked in a pitiful excuse
of a drag, zipped up his pants, and buckled his worn leather belt, while continuing to gaze at her loveliness and the art
work he planned on finishing.
He relished how good she was. How really
good. And how she put up a good go-round too-- better than most. He felt another erection coming on, stroked it through
his pants with a bloody hand, and smiled exposing his rotten teeth that clinched the dangling cigarette like a vice.
...Beauty is art yet unfinished,
waiting
impatiently to be blanketed
in the warmth of its delusion,
neatly woven from its own affliction.
Only the artist
has eyes to see
his carefully crafted perfection...
******
It
was raining again for the third time in the past few hours, and Toni didn't think it would ever stop. The rain slicked
streets, mirrored the headlights of the cars that drove into the paved lot. She pulled into a parking space barely big enough
for her SUV, but managed to leave herself enough room to open her door. She was in a hurry and didn't have time for such
inconveniences. It was already a quarter to eight and she was giving a speech at a charity dinner.
A woman's voice shrilled through the resounding down pour. "Toni! Toni Taft! Oh,
my God-- is that really you?"
Startled, Toni dropped
her purse, spilling the contents on the glassy pavement. She tried fruitlessly to open her umbrella, snagging it on her coat,
but it finally burst open.
She briefly glanced toward the
direction of the voice, but was hesitant to answer. She didn't recognize the woman, and clicked the keyless remote, locking
the SUV's doors. Instinctively, she positioned her finger on the trigger of the small pepper-spray canister that dangled
from her key-chain; a habit she'd developed for safety and had become second nature. She'd learned many in the self-defense
and martial arts classes she'd taken. Her former line of work had its dangers.
Toni wasn't in the mood for interruptions. Her clothes were drenched, her blond hair saturated, with hair
sprayed-tainted rain, trickling from her scalp, traveling down her face creating blackened mascara-run eyes. She knew she
must have looked like a wet raccoon and had to abandon the hope of staying dry.
Bending down, picking up a wet jeweled lipstick tube off the ground, she returned it to its rightful place and kept
her finger on the pepper-spray trigger.
She looked up at the woman again. "Do I know you?"
"No. But I know you. Who doesn't? You used to be in the
news practically every day," the woman answered.
Toni
didn't respond while searching for a dry tissue in her purse, then heard the sounds of the woman‘s high heels echoing
a sharp, click-clacking on the pavement as she approached, even in the resonant rain.
"I'd hoped I would eventually find you. I never dreamed I'd bump into you like this! I've tried
finding your phone number and address, but it's like you're non-existent. My name is Erma-- Erma Bartlow. Maybe you've
heard my name before. If I could just have a -- "
"Look,
I really don't have time to talk, or for an autograph right now. Especially not in this rain," Toni interrupted.
She didn't have patience for people who wanted psychic answers to their personal problems and love lives, or crazed paranormal
fans, particularly ones that stalked her. Thinking that was the end of it, she fumbled with her umbrella and walked away.
She was thankful there were people in the parking lot and that it provided ample lighting.
Toni began walking toward the store, then stopped, pivoting around to look at the woman."I'm
sorry."
"Wait a minute, please-- just a
moment of your time," the woman yelled. "Look, Ms. Taft, I don't want your autograph. I need to talk with you.
It's about my daughter," she yelled in a higher-pitched voice. "I need answers about what happened to her. I
need closure."
Something in the sound of the woman's voice
induced an eerie feeling in her. She'd felt that before when she had talked to victims' families. Toni stopped, turned
around facing her. She could see the woman's eyes clearly in the parking lot's street light. Her eyes were a crystallized
blue, like ice in its metamorphosing stage from liquid to solid. There was so much pain entrenched within the her eyes, and
they were as pleading as the sound of her voice.
Toni broke her
own rule of trusting strangers. "All right," she blurted, "but not out here in this rain. We can get into my
car to talk-- but only for a few minutes. That's the best I can do."
Mrs. Bartlow willingly followed. Her facial expression and body posture more relaxed, as if content for any small amount
of time granted her.
******
Toni made it to the charity dinner later than she'd wanted. She thought it'd
be unbearable; instead it was surprisingly pleasant and it was nice seeing old friends and former associates again. She hadn't
been able to stop thinking about her conversation she'd had with Mrs. Bartlow, which made it difficult to concentrate
on the charity.
It was late and felt good to finally be home.
Even though she was tired, it was a perfect time to grab an opened bottle of wine and go outside and sit on the porch swing
to relax in quiet solitude while absorbing the calmness of the night.
Willow trees bowed, tickling the ground with their leafy tips and moonlight danced over the dewy grass, sparkling
in unison to the stars above. The rain had stopped, leaving its mark like a signature on a masterpiece of the world. Adjacent
rooftops puffed their ashen smoke, each forming unique clouds of its own design. The neighboring dogs barked their good nights
throughout the darkened distance, closing the day's province.
She
sat comfortably, swaying in rhythmic motion, taking a gulp from the wine bottle, instead of the usual polite sip of Chardonnay
from a crystal glass. The familiar warmth soothed her inside, and she realized the indulgence had evolved into a nightly ritual
over the past couple of years. She adjusted the rose-colored shawl her grandmother had knitted, and gazed at the beauty that
surrounded her while listening to the peaceful chants of the night. Once the serenades of the dogs had subsided, it became
calm, almost still.
Feeling more relaxed and peaceful, she
thought how the chilly night's cleansing might offer a newness to the coming day. But, the thought didn't bring her
any comfort.
The story Mrs. Bartlow had told, chilled
her blood in a way that the Chardonnay couldn't warm. One of the killer's victims was Mrs. Bartlow's daughter.
His sixth victim.
She'd read about it in the
newspaper, although it was fragmented. There were details omitted that the police didn't tell the media, which
is standard for ongoing cases.
Why did I have to
stop by that particular grocer, at that particular time, at precisely that moment? Any other time, I wouldn't have run
into Ms. Bartlow-- or would I have eventually, somewhere else?
She knew why all too well...
******
...Inside your world you cannot hide,
trapped to face the horrors of your miscue,
where you shall remain until your doom
is decided...
by whom you choose to avoid...
or whom you choose to consume...
The train shook his apartment. Reddick was used to it. The picture of the dogs playing poker, fell, shattering glass haphazardly
over the peeling linoleum floor. He hadn't liked the picture anyway. The stupid mongrels seated at a poker table
with cigars hanging out of their mouths, always reminded him of his mother. It wasn't because it had been hers and hung
in the dining room of the old, rickety house he'd grown up in-- it was because she sat with a damned cigarette hanging
from her prune-like lips, wearing a tattered housecoat and slippers all day, while constantly bitching and complaining.
A mother isn't supposed to have such nasty vices.
...Where's that place you dare to hide?
In your head or deeper inside?
Makes no difference
one way or another,
you can't escape what was left there by mother...
He lit a cigarette and laid down on the old Army cot used for a bed. Reaching down, he smashed
a cockroach that had dared to crawl onto his leg. He smeared it into a gooey blotch, then wiped his hand on his rank t-shirt,
and downed the backwash that was left in a nearby beer can, throwing it on the floor and watching it roll under a chair. He
didn't care.
Reddick jumped up and walked barefoot across
the floor, stepping on shards of glass from the glass he'd dropped the night before. While feeling no pain,
he left bloody footprints behind on his short journey to the television. He switched it on and got a cold beer from the small,
rusty 'fridge, then slouchingly plopped down in his threadbare-armchair with both legs dangled over one arm's
side, and guzzled the cold brew.
There it is. I might
become famous. So, the news anchorman said the police found a woman's body in the woods out in Holler Hills?
Sweet.
Then the anchorman continued with the national
news.
No-- damn it! He didn't report any details--
no video, no pictures-- nothing! Well hell, of course not-- they wouldn't give credit to my handiwork-- my art. Shit no!
What does a man have to do to get some recognition? Some acknowledgment for his craft? It's art in the most unadulterated
form-- sheer genius! I should be named the artist of the friggin' year!
...And a man's work is never
finished,
left undone, it seeks perfection.
As famous men have fallen high,
of
much their own unsettling affliction.
And all the while, they
must continue,
searching for their renown recognition...
Chapter
Two - Indecision
"Hello?" she asked, answering the phone.
"Ms. Taft?"
"Yes."
"This is Detective Meadows over at the 23rd Precinct," the soft voice announced.
"I'd like to speak with you if I may. Can I buy you a cup of coffee? How 'bout at the Brew-A-Cup coffee shop
over on the corner of 59th Avenue and Scenic Boulevard?"
"Can
I ask what this is about, Detective-- ?"
"... Meadows.
I'd rather tell you over a cup of coffee, Ms. Taft. It's really too much to go into over the phone. Will you accept
my invitation?"
"If this is about consulting, I'm
retired," she told him.
"I think this is something
you'll want to hear. It's important, Ms. Taft. I'll even throw in a slice of their famous apple pie. A la mode,
if you'd like. I know this is short notice, and I apologize. Can we say, in about an hour or so? Is that time enough?"
he asked, knowing not to ask an open-ended question. "Please?"
"I guess I can manage it-- but my time is somewhat limited and I cherish it. So it better be important, Detective,"
she told him, hanging up.
Something bothered her about his
phone call. His voice and demeanor induced an eerie compulsion to meet with him. She knew what it was about. It was obvious
he was going to ask her to help him on the serial killer case that was so prominent in the news. With Mrs. Bartlow and his
phone call being in succession, she felt it was destined.
Toni
made a call to the police chief, verifying Detective Meadows was legitimate. She quickly changed clothes, dabbed on some make-up,
and grabbed her purse and coat on her way out the door-- then remembered she'd left her car keys on the foyer table. In
one full-circled swoop, she ran back inside, snatched them up and dashed back out the door.
It was heavily misting out and the streets were wet. A rainbow arched above the city as if
it were a fantasy land full of fairies twittering about. Traffic was busier than normal, with people running errands and stocking
up on supplies due to torrent rains.
The radio announcer reported
another woman's body had been found earlier that morning. She turned the volume up and fumbled with the radio knob trying
to tune the station in clearer, while keeping her eyes on the street and traffic ahead. The announcer continued to report
that it was the eleventh body discovered in the past couple of months and police didn't have any clues. My God! This
is one of the worst, most gruesome cases, she thought, remembering the past cases she'd worked and wanted to
forget--needed to forget.
Toni parked her dark, teal-colored
SUV. It was the only one like it in town which she figured 'marked' her identity; instead of her preference
of blending into the scenery. She walked inside the coffee shop removing her mahogany leather coat, carefully folding it over
her arm. She didn't like crowded public places. She walked over to the jukebox that was right of the door and stood, searching
the faces in the crowd, while hoping Detective Meadows would approach her before she became conspicuous.
A handsome man with a slightly crooked smile, approached her while wiping his right hand
on his trousers.
"Hello, Ms. Taft," he greeted,
politely extending his hand. He looked as though he was slightly shocked. She looked different than he'd pictured
her, expecting her to be a short, rounded, little woman with dull eyes and horn-rimmed glasses, or look matronly with hair
up in a bun, a tight laced collar, and wearing comfortable shoes.
Toni
graciously shook his hand. "Hello. I presume you're Detective Meadows," she replied, discreetly sizing him up.
Not that a person could judge the height of someone by the sound of their voice, she thought, he's taller than
I'd imagined. His eyes were a rich, cherry wood-brown, and his hair matched, complimenting his chiseled features.
"May I see your badge please, Detective? Women need to be
more cautious these days. I'm sure you're aware of that."
He pulled his badge from his coat pocket, opened it for her to view, while she verified he was who he said he was,
and flipped it shut, returning it to his pocket.
"I've
got a table over in the corner where we can speak privately." He nodded at the table while taking her coat and escorted
her across the room, pulling the chair out for her to be seated.
"Thank you," she said, sitting and scooting the chair closer to the table with his help. "What's
so important that you had to speak to me about, Detective?"
A
young waitress politely interrupted, taking their coffee order and leaving two glasses of iced water with lemon twists.
He waited to answer, allowing the waitress to leave. "Please,
call me Brad. I'm not keen on formal." He couldn't help being drawn to her greenish cat-eyes and noticed how
gracefully she moved. She wasn't very tall, but slender and very proportioned for her height. She was strikingly pretty.
Toni felt uncomfortable with his stare, and certainly didn't
intend calling him by first name, informal or not. She didn't like to get too familiar with people or on a personal
level. It brought too much torment into her planned and serene life she'd built the past few years.
"I suppose you've read the newspapers, Ms. Taft, and seen the television news like
everyone else. It's about the serial killer that's headlined every national paper and news channel in the country.
We're working with the FBI on this case, but have the jurisdiction momentarily, but won't much longer-- that's
what this is about."
"Sure, I've read and heard
about it. It appalls me and scares me just like it does everyone else, Detective. But what does that have to do with me?"
She already knew his answer.
"I'd like your help,
Ms. Taft. You've solved a lot of crimes, helping the police catch lunatics-- which helped saved a lot of lives. I don't
have any leads to identify this maniac yet, let alone, catch him. You might be able to give some insight with your psychic
abilities. That's why I asked you here this afternoon-- to ask for your help."
I was right, she thought. "Look, Detective Meadows, I figured that's why you phoned me. But as
I've already told you, I'm retired now. I don't work cases anymore and prefer to remain retired."
"I know that. And I know you've already talked with my chief,
Ms. Taft. I understand-- I really do. But this is different. It's not the typical case that you've consulted
in the past," he answered, taking a sip of coffee.
"What
makes this one any different from any other serial killer? They're all insane-- all of them are narcissists, mentally
and emotionally sick, perverted in every sense of the meaning, and indescribably demented; and each is either a man-made sociopath
or a born psychopath-- that's exactly why I stopped consulting-- I had to stop in order to remain sane. I needed to wash
the evil from my mind-- and my life."
Detective Meadows
was prepared for her response. "He is different. He's more than the typical serial killer, more than demented and
ruthless, and more than being just another sick psycho on the loose. He's beyond our profilers' abilities to classify
him. His method is unique. Off the charts, they tell me."
He laid
a couple of over-stuffed manila envelopes on the table, sliding them toward her reach.
She looked down at the bulging packets. "What are these?" she asked, not wanting to look inside them. She
looked up at him, waiting for his answer.
"They're
my personal files on this sick guy. Some snapshots of his victims, locations, his M.O., our profiler's report, and copies
of what clues we have. Which is almost zero, actually. We've got the original crime scene photos back at the precinct,
boxed for each case. Open one, Ms. Taft," he told her, nudging them closer to her side of the table. "You'll
better understand why I, no-- why we, need your help-- why their families need your help. Give them some closure. Help us
catch this son-of-a-bitch before he kills another girl," he said, pausing, catching his breathe, "your reputation
is impeccable, and chances are, you could be the only person to have the power to stop him. We still don‘t know how
he picks them-- even you could be his next victim."
Toni
reached for one of the folders and hesitated, retracting her hand. She looked up at Detective Meadows. His eyes were pleading
and his facial expression solemn. She reached again, holding her hand inches above a folder. Her hand trembled but she finally
mustered the courage to touch it, and then closed her eyes.
There
was a cold feeling. A feeling of anger and hatred. She felt a profound sense of sadness... even stronger, she felt an unrelenting
torturous despair... there was blood. So very much blood ...
...she felt connected to the killer somehow...